Citizen Surgeon

by Paul Bryan Roach · Memoir

Paul Bryan Roach grew up in the Appalachian coalfields and went north to train as a surgeon because the closest medical school was three hundred miles away and the closest teaching hospital was twice that. He came back south — eventually — with a scalpel in one hand and a country in the other, and he has spent the years since trying to figure out what it means to do the first thing well in service of the second. Citizen Surgeon is the book that answer turned into. It is a memoir, but it is also a quietly furious argument that the work of a republic, in a country like ours, has never been separable from the work of a person with a steady hand and a patient on the table. The dividing line is a fiction, and the book is, in part, an attempt to take it down.

The book follows Roach across four decades and as many operating rooms: a military trauma hospital on a forward operating base, where the patients were young and the nights were longer than the supply lines; a charity ward in a teaching hospital, where the patients were uninsured and the question of who paid was treated as a clerical matter rather than a moral one; a tertiary care center in West Virginia, where the patients were his neighbors and the disease patterns of an entire region showed up on his table in a single shift; and the meeting rooms of a statehouse, where the policies that shape whether a patient survives the drive to the hospital are argued out by people who have never had to make that drive. Each chapter is a different room, but the same question carries through all of them: what is the difference between practicing medicine and practicing citizenship, and why have we been told there is one.

The memoir does not flinch from the failures of the system Paul worked inside. He writes about the patients he could not save because they arrived too late, because the helicopter was grounded, because the formulary did not carry the drug they needed, because the social worker who should have been in the room was covering two counties that day. He writes about the colleagues who burned out and the colleagues who covered for them and the colleagues who quietly rationed their own attention to keep the schedule from collapsing. He writes about the moral arithmetic of triage — not the dramatic kind, the kind that gets taught in military manuals, but the daily kind, the kind that gets practiced in a clinic with eighteen scheduled patients and two exam rooms and an inbox that will not close.

Running alongside the clinical work is a quieter thread: the realization, late in the book, that the public-health fights his patients were losing in their own bodies were the same fights being argued in courtrooms and statehouses in his own name. The same Appalachian counties where he was amputating limbs from diabetes that could have been prevented with a quarter-mile of sidewalk, or a clinic that took Medicaid, or a water line that had not been replaced since the Eisenhower administration, were the same counties whose legislators were being lobbied on every one of those questions. The book is at its best when it is patient about this realization — not a call to arms so much as a call to arithmetic, a refusal to pretend that the surgery and the citizenship belong to different people with different skill sets.

Citizen Surgeon is written for the reader who has watched a community lose ground it cannot get back — a clinic closed, a school consolidated, a hospital bought and gutted by a system that does not know their names. It is written for the medical student who is beginning to suspect that the residency they are about to enter is itself a civic institution, and for the practicing physician who has known it for years and has run out of ways to say it out loud. It is written for the soldier who came home and discovered that the country they served was not the country that came to their town meeting. Read it slowly. Read it with someone from home. Then decide what you are going to do about it.

The OR is colder than the rest of the hospital, on purpose, and the circulator has learned not to apologize for it. The patient on the table is nineteen and has been in the country for six hours. He came off a medevac with a wound the size of a closed fist and a chart full of notes nobody on this side has read yet. There is a translator on a video screen in the corner and an anesthesiologist who has already done the kind of work this wound will require, twice this month, on patients very nearly this young. I have known this boy for ninety seconds. I have known his wound for thirty of them. In a minute I will know neither of them the way the people who brought him here knew him. The circulator hands me the knife. The translator asks him, in a language neither of us speaks, whether he understands what is about to happen. He nods. The translator does not translate the nod back to me. I do not need him to.

— Citizen Surgeon, by Paul Bryan Roach